It's a green, GREEN Christmas...

So this is me... envy abounds in nearly every moment of my day now.. I am really tired of listening to the people around me go on and on about what they want for Christmas, what they are getting for this person, or that person- while I am trying to figure out how to keep my lights on, and my phone on, and pay my rent and get my son something for Christmas, and buy groceries, and pay for William's root canal, and help my mom buy Christmas, and I'm so tired of feeling this way!!!! UGH! I am borrowed to the gills, calling every few days to extend my phone bill, borrowing money from my son and going absolutely CRAZY!!!! December SUCKS!